*chomp chomp chomp*

Gawrsh people, I've had bad dreams and a touch of insomnia for the month. It's not very fun, I have gotten really socially akward in the mornings and yesterday when I went to fetch breakfast for my family (we were at a hotel) I spilled things countless times and made a big mess. There had to be a jillion people downstairs D:

I am also a very stereotypical girl when it comes to emotional episodes. I'm still not over something that happened a little over a month ago and I still cry every night. It's so annoying, but you know when your mouth becomes dry and tears wont come out no matter hard you want them to, well, my crying was like that. So, I'm planning to make a doll I can take my anger out on. It sounds a little creepy, but I think its the only way to unleash all the chaos that has been growing and festering inside of me. Maybe I won't have horrible dreams of people I love dying.

O_O Another thing...the dreams...Yeah, all I could really dream of lately is being violently raped (Dx) and people dying. It's so very scary and I cry when I sleep, so it's also embarrasing when you wake up to someone telling you to shut up. But no matter how bad my dreams seem, I still don't have the strength to try and cast them away forever. When I think about it, it's just so sad, who would want to leave the heaven that they could never have in real life? Wouldn't it be great to have a crappy day, and ease it off with a dream of swimming with whales in a night sky while the moon shines brightly on the water below you, or catching fluffy clouds when you flay through the sky with bird wings. ( I know clouds are prolly not fluffy, but wet, but I still like to think they are fluffy)
The hardest part is letting go of your dreams

I really would like to change, it seems that slow, stupid Sabby doesn't have much of a place in the world, so I really want to start over. Maybe I'll be more successful, nothing really seems to be glowing in my future right now, and I really wish something was. I will now embark on my journey towards being a better person and I might just make it.
Wish me luck?

Adios.
-Sabby the ninja pirate zombie squirrel.