Xepher-Zero

It sure has been a while.  I think I last posted around Valentine's Day?


This is why we can't have nice things...
I'm not good at keeping a diary, but I try.

So what's new, well...
I am in college now
I LOVE My Little Pony Friendship is Magic
I no longer reside in Austin
I think I have given up on going to art school
I now want to study to work in the Funeral Home business
I live in Houston
I think Houston sucks
I miss my old friends
I STILL don't have a job
I have a boyfriend
I have a nice boyfriend
I sing more often but don't aspire to be a singer
I try to keep up with anime, but I don't put the effort in to watch in my free time
I'm pretty much a homebody
I'm growing my hair out
I like and I'm not afraid to say it


So yeah. That's pretty much it.
I'll try to keep updating when I draw new things.
BTW...I'll try and go through this crappy lappi to find old arts.
WHO DO I OWE COMMISHES TO? AND WHAT WERE THEY AGAIN?

The meme train. I'M ON IT TOO

1.Are you single or taken?

Single-ish?

2. Chocolate or flowers?

Chocolate

3. Will you do anything special for Valentines Day?
I was gonna make a cake and cards, but I'm much too lazy today.


4. Do you like anyone?

Yes

5. Were you dating anyone last Valentines?

Yes it was

6. Who do you want to spend Valentines with?
...
Someone who's a slight douche bag, but I like him anyway


BFFS IN IRL

7. Do you make a big deal about Valentines?

FFFF.
Most of the time, I do

8. Have you ever had a secret admirer?

Totally. They left me love letters in my locker, it was sweet, a little creepy, but still sweet <3

9. Would you ever write someone a love letter?

Oh hell ya <3

10. Do you believe in Cupid?

Yes, and he's a little son of a bitch D:<


11. Do your parents give you presents on Valentines?

Not usually ; w ;

12. Do you still send out Valentine cards?

I do, except this year

13. Do you like candy hearts?
Just one box or two.
Getting like, 10 million of them kill me

14. What is something you got last Valentines?

Stuff...that Kyo got me...and we hung out and stuff, since it was like, our anniversary

15. Is Valentines depressing?

This year it is...confuzzling

16. How is your love life?

Meh

17. Have you ever been dumped on Valentines?

Nah :iconretardediloveitplz:

18. How many roses would you want?

one million!


19. Will you have a girlfriend/boyfriend this Valentines day?
I HIIIIIGGGHLLY doubt it

20. Do you look forward to Valentines day?
Ya

21. Who was your last Valentine from?
Kyo and some friends

22. Who do you expect to get a Valentine from this year?

>___>
Kyo <3
and hopefully someone else...

23. Who would you most like to receive a Valentine from?

N-kun <3

24. How many Valentines will you be sending this year?

Dude. I wish I could send some, but I be too lazy

25. Have you ever not received a Valentine?


YESSSSS


26. What was the most Valentines you received in a single year?

I dun remember

27. Have you ever received an anonymous Valentine?

yup, its cute

28. Have you ever sent an anonymous Valentine?

Ehh, yes.
And then regretted it because I felt like a coward

29. Will you be sending an anonymous Valentine this year?

no

30. What was the best Valentine gift you ever received?

A boyfriend x3

31. What was the worst?
lingerie

32. Have you ever started dating someone on Valentines day?

I just found out my GPA is a 2.8804.
I was expecting to be somewhere around 3.0 but I guess not.
This is really frustrating for me and as well as my parents because I'm supposed to be "smart."

I really don't know how I can raise it now since I am already in the first semester of my senior year.
My class size is 328 and my class rank is 124.
WHAT DO I DO?!! Nothing seems to help, and I seriously can't afford a tutor or take a college course on the side =w=;;
I'm actually thinking about getting into many different after school or extra curricular activities so that I at least look like I contribute to society or something...

GRRRR....
Only one thing can get me out of this emotional slump, and only temporarily...
that is of course, Double K.


Can't wait for the next page to come out :3

Uhhh...
I've been so lazy D:
I really need to do stuff for this, but I'm really embarrassed of all the things I got done in art class.

Y'KNOW WHAT?!
Photography kicks my butt. Really badly...
Like...rape.In.the.butt.
Uhh, that was gross. Sorry =w=;;

Well, so, I  was all like, "Bee-otch, get outta mah way!" and then she was all like, "..."
That didn't really happen. But something that did happen made me all weird inside.
My friend, whom I often refer to as my "Grampa" decided that since he and my "mama" were not getting along, he would no longer allow me to call him Grampa.
I thought he would get over it, but now he tells me to drop it every time I come to say hi.  What a poophead.
And, I want to be tagged for something ;-; No one tags me.
Then again, my tablet is a butt head and not working sometimes.

IM SO ADDICTED TO HARVEST MOON O_O
It's the [echo]best.best.best.[/echo]
I need to find that darn blue feather to marry Jin. Q~Q
I find it strange that he asks you to go to the clinic to see Irene when you are pregnant. (I watched it on youchoob...)
If he's the main doctor, why doesn't he just give you the check up?! >_< It doesn't make sense >_>

Well....I guess that's enough rambling. I'll tell you more later <3

Love you all!
-Xepher~

*chomp chomp chomp*

Gawrsh people, I've had bad dreams and a touch of insomnia for the month.  It's not very fun, I have gotten really socially akward in the mornings and yesterday when I went to fetch breakfast for my family (we were at a hotel) I spilled things countless times and made a big mess.  There had to be a jillion people downstairs D:

I am also a very stereotypical girl when it comes to emotional episodes.  I'm still not over something that happened a little over a month ago and I still cry every night.  It's so annoying, but you know when your mouth becomes dry and tears wont come out no matter hard you want them to, well, my crying was like that. So, I'm planning to make a doll I can take my anger out on.  It sounds a little creepy, but I think its the only way to unleash all the chaos that has been growing and festering inside of me.  Maybe I won't have horrible dreams of people I love dying.

O_O Another thing...the dreams...Yeah, all I could really dream of lately is being violently raped (Dx) and people dying. It's so very scary and I cry when I sleep, so it's also embarrasing when you wake up to someone telling you to shut up.  But no matter how bad my dreams seem, I still don't have the strength to try and cast them away forever.  When I think about it, it's just so sad, who would want to leave the heaven that they could never have in real life?  Wouldn't it be great to have a crappy day, and ease it off with a dream of swimming with whales in a night sky while the moon shines brightly on the water below you, or catching fluffy clouds when you flay through the sky with bird wings.  ( I know clouds are prolly not fluffy, but wet, but I still like to think they are fluffy)
The hardest part is letting go of your dreams

I really would like to change, it seems that slow, stupid Sabby doesn't have much of a place in the world, so I really want to start over. Maybe I'll be more successful, nothing really seems to be glowing in my future right now, and I really wish something was.  I will now embark on my journey towards being a better person and I might just make it.
Wish me luck?

Adios.
-Sabby the ninja pirate zombie squirrel.